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Last night I had a dream. Naturally.
Though, all I remember is a vague dialog. Here it is.

I stood under the dark, empty canopy of night, on a clifftop, looking over a valley of lush trees and gushing streams.
I watched the stars wink at me, as a tear silently fell down my cheek.
My friend walked up behind me, a big grin on their face.
Hello, they said.
Hello, I replied dully.
What are you doing?
Praying.
It doesn't look like you're praying.
What do you think praying looks like?
Getting on your hands and knees, putting your palms together and shutting your eyes.
Well, if that helps you pray.
What helps you pray?
Looking at the stars.
Cool.
I need to tell you something.
OK.
...
...
I feel so alone.
If God hadn't been with me, I don't know what I would have done.
Imagine.
Imagine if I weren't a Christian, if my parents weren't Christian and I hadn't grown up as a Christian, in a Christian family.
Imagine what I'd be like.
...
I would feel so, so alone.
I would be empty.
I would have no purpose.
I would try to find one, and fail.
I would try to fill the gap in my heart.
I would fill it with smoke, drugs and alcohol.
I wouldn't be here. Alive.
I wouldn't know you, be your friend.
I wouldn't be ambitious, intelligent.
I wouldn't be me.
...
Funny how a single belief, one tiny thought, can change your life.
Change your future.
I still feel empty and alone, but God is with me.
I have a purpose and a big part in his plan.
And, despite the emptiness and loneliness, I feel special.
Someone loves me
And that's all I need.
Someone who loves me unconditionally.
Someone who loves me despite the wreck I am.
Someone who will always be there no matter what I think or say about him.
And for that I am eternally grateful.

With what God has given me I try to give to you:
love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, kindness and faithfulness.
Although 'peace' is definitely crossed off my list.
Sorry.

I am not saying you have been horrible friends, on the contrary, I've rarely met better
- only my family bests you.
Nor is this some form of suicidal speech - everyone feels down at times.

I'm just saying that for you guys I'll stay.
For you, I will survive a dark winter of my life.
For it is you, my friends, whom I will continue to love.

And God will be forever after by my side,
whether he exists or not.

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